It's been a while

And there is a good reason. I don't like to talk about fluff much. I just want to write what I feel and there was something going on in my life that I wasn't prepared to share with the blog world. So rather then talk around it, I just stopped blogging. I wanted to write about it so bad that I had to stop checking the blogs that I follow so I wouldn't be tempted to post about it. Low and behold I finally log onto my google reader to find 197 new blog posts. Let's just say I scanned them LOL. Except for rssnlvr because I love the way she writes.

Ok, can you tell I'm stalling?? What I've been avoiding telling you my blog readers is that Keith and I are expecting a new little one. Yes, I am super excited. Yes, we were trying. The reason I was keeping it from you all was because I wasn't sure if God was going to let me keep him/her. I started to spot from the get go. Last week on Mon. 12/6 I passed two small bright red clots and I freaked out. Called my Dr. Crying and all. They got me in for an U/S and so far everything looks great! I continued to spot for a few days after. Today marks 7 days of no blood. ::crosses fingers::

We told our parents right away, like the day after we got our first positive pregnancy test. Why, you ask? Two reasons; One, because we were headed to Palm Springs with DH's family and lets just say I'm not a lush but I'm know for enjoying myself with a few adult beverages. So rather then come up with new lies we just blurted the news out. Two, before I was pregnant with my beautiful Nanie we were pregnant and we lost it :(. We didn't tell anyone and I ended up breaking down a couple times out of no where. I was trying not to grieve outwardly because we didn't want anyone to know and it hurt so much more. So just in case I did loose this one, I wanted a ton of support.

It was the best decision ever. Going through this spotting has been scary and It's so nice to be able to talk to my mom about it. Keith wasn't able to come to the u/s with me when I thought I might have miscarried. So I called my mom and she left work to come be with me. It was just what I needed. The second best thing in the world. It was also nice to celebrate with her when all was fine.

I am about 10 weeks maybe a little less. I have an appointment on the 15th for another ultra sound. We are are excited and I'm just praying my baby is still alive and well.

I haven't announced on FB but I have mentioned not being able to drink in a couple responses. I'm not keeping it from anyone we are just not shouting from the rooftops until 2nd trimester. So please keep my little one in your prayers.

Oh yea, I can't forget to tell you about Nanie. She is wonderful!! She is a walker now. which means she walks more then she crawls or does her knee walk. I need to get that on video before she stops doing it. She is wonderful but will need tubs in her ears at one point. We are holding off unless things get bad. So far so good.

It was nice to "chat" with you all again.